Broken Wings

HI there,

I just finished the music video shootings for the up-coming single "Broken Wings". It took us 4 days in total.
The first day was everything from awesome to a nightmare. We started 8 am with make-up and I didn't get home until 5 in the morning. I thought it was going to be challenge to film with small kids but with some Angry Birds candy it went smoothly. The kids were very patient and so sweet.

The little "fan club"

I was also met by a small "fan club"of school kids, when we got to the second shooting location. Except for pulling my hair and jumping up and down in front of the camera, they were very cute 

and helpful.

The "nightmare part" started at around 7pm on a random playground in the middle of nowhere. Not only was it raining but it was very cold outside and the power kept on going off. 

I almost started to regret I had decided that my character shouldn't wear any shoes or jacket. After an hour I started shaking so badly I couldn't keep my body still or control my breathing. 

On top of that we had fire effects that were supposed to go off on a certain time in the song. It took a while to prepare them before each take and I knew I couldn't afford to mess it up because I was freezing.

It's gonna be interesting to see how it turned out. If you can't fight it you gotta turn it into your advantage, so I did my best to use the coldness as a tool to get the emotion needed for the chorus. 

After this day the rest of the days felt like a piece of cake. We were also very lucky, since two actors jumped out right before the shootings and both times we managed to find new ones half a day before the next shootings. So big thanks to Josefin Silen & Irina Tundra. You girls rocked!

 I also had the honor to get the wrestler/singer, "Starbuck", to play one of the main characters in the video. He did an absolutely amazing job.
Big thanks!

-Jessica

Starbuck & my freezing self

Brain cell damaging activity

Cold to the bone after spending some wonderful time in the water at the photo shoot

Hi there,

I think I must have lost half of my brain cells, spending 4 hours on the train, staring at myself on the laptop screen trying to pick out 10 out of 2245 promo pictures for the album. Maybe not the best way to get that energy boost before a gig. 

The internet connection was really bad and it took ages for the pictures to show.  However, with a good mood, patience and a lot of coffee I managed to go through about 700 pictures.

 The deadline for the up coming single and music video (Broken Wings), is coming up very quickly and there is a lot to do. It feels exciting, stressful, awesome and a tiny bit scary.

I have about two weeks time to master the single, pick out one picture for the single cover, find a grafic designer, register the song, get the needed codes and texts for the layout and finally send them to printing.

When it comes to the music video the story hit me as I was recording the song.  After a bunch of meetings later with the director we had the script in our hands. The song is about the pressure of the society and it's effect on people. It's something I wanted to write about for a long time and it has woken up a lot of thoughts and feelings on the way.

It's always exciting following the journey from the beginning of an idea to the final result. It also gives you a better chance to express yourself on a deeper level.

 That's also the little scary part, to take something so personal and expose it in public. I guess it would be like standing naked on the stage. It doesn't get more honest than that. People like or they don't, but usually they react.

Rock on!

Jessica

Rocking on an lung infection

HI there,

A lung infection is one of the last thing you want before a gig, especially if you have two in the same day. After being sick for 2 weeks I was still hopeful of getting well before my shows last weekend.
But the same morning I my throat was still dry, my nose was stuffed and I couldn't stop coughing.

After freaking out about it for a bit I pulled my up and decided I'm not going to let that ruin my day. There's not much to do about the situation but getting nervous and worry defenitely won't make it better.

 I decided to do the best out of the situation, stay relaxed and only focus on the message I want to deliver. Before I've also been focusing on moving around, the sound of my voice, the instruments etc. Completely ignoring those thoughts made me feel more free than ever.
My voice broke every ones in a while but luckily people didn't seem to notice.

In the end I had a lot of fun and it felt so great being up on the stage. It turned out to be a very valuable experience for me and it was another proof for me how much of the performance is based on mind power.









Rock on!

Jessica

Writers Block

Practiced a Kung-Fu kick called "Butterfly". I later realized it looked more like an attempt to stage dive in the park.

Hi there,

I've been trying to come up with a good interesting subject to write about for a week now. I've been at home in a heavy flu, which should be a good mode for blog writing. I thought the subject would just naturally pop up in my head sooner or later. Well it still hasn't, so I guess I'll have to write about writers-block.

It happens to me every once in a while, especially when I'm dealing with "office stuff" and tricky contracts. Business stuff and song writing simply don't go hand in hand.
Since I've released everything myself It basically makes me my own record label. Which also makes me responsible of everything else besides the actual singing. It's good and bad to be your own boss. You need more than a lot of discipline to make it work, which can be exhausting sometimes. But on the other hand you have all the control and can choose which direction you want to go. It was scary in the beginning since I'm so new (3 years) to the business side of music.
 I've made a lot of mistakes on the way but that's the way to learn, and I don't think I would learn the same things on a school bench.

You often hear people talking about artists as "products". It's really sad, but it's also the raw truth.
It felt like a slap in the face when my consultant told me 3 years ago that I better start seeing it that way and get used to the thought.

That's where it gets weird. I'm responsible of selling a product which happens to be myself. That's quite mind twisting sometimes. So, I've come to the conclusion that it's better to just "be", keep your feet on the ground and do what feels right and keep focused.
If I'll think too much about that stuff I will most likely get a writers block. ;)

Rock on!

Jessica Wolff

Hi everyone,

Sunday, two weeks ago I got a message from a guy asking if I wanted to do a promo gig the following Wednesday. The gig would be 4 hours away from Helsinki at a big rally event with a lot of people and they wanted me to be the main act.
I've never been asked to do a gig only 2,5 days before and I told the guy it might not be possible to get the band together with such a short notice.
After calling around it turned out that half of my band members were abroad. However, I was dealing with a very stubborn guy who insisted that I make it work.
If someone's working hard to give me a gig I don't want to be the one giving up.
The following Monday became one hectic day. I made about a million phone calls and by the end of the night I finally found a keyboard guy who was ready to learn the songs in one day. I also got a base player who ended up taking an 8h train ride from the north of Finland just to do the gig.

Unfortunately we didn't have any time to rehears. Normally this would have made me a bit nervous but somehow everything came so fast I couldn't afford, and didn't have time to stress about it.

After a 4 hour drive we arrived to the place and started to get ready for soundcheck. Their schedule was late and someone told me we would have to skip the whole soundcheck.
I thought it couldn't get worse: New guys, no rehearsal and no soundcheck, great.  Luckily one of the organizers realized it wasn't such a brilliant idea to let the band play without having any idea about the sound, so he managed to arranged some more time for us.

 It turned out that this guy who got me the gig had recommended me and some other bands to the arrangers. He had asked them to pick their top 3 but instead they had put my name 3 times. He tried to explain they need at least one back up but they insisted that I was the only option.
 No wonder why the guy had been so stubborn, at some point I even thought it was a bit weird that he tried so hard. Anyhow, I can't complain, it was a big compliment that made my day.

After the soundcheck I still didn't feel any sort of nervosity and it almost started to worry me. Of the times I've been nervous before a gig this should have been the worst.
 I thought maybe it would hit me like a rock in the stomach right before I go on stage like a couple of times before.
However,  stressing about not stressing is probably the most stupid reason to stress, so I decided to keep my calm vibe and if the nervosity hits, it hits.
Well, for some reason it never happened and it actually turned out to be one of my best gigs. At least I had a lot of fun on stage and think I was a bit all over the place. The keyboard guy and base player were both fantastic and the audience like it.
Sometimes it's good to just throw yourself out there without being prepared and just trust the situation.

After the gig we got a really good response and after a long night I got home at about 5 am in the morning.

The next gig will be the 8th of September in Tampere in Särkänniemi. I will have two gigs the same day. If you're around that area I hope to see you in the audience!

Rock on!

Jessica

Chilling on an island

Hi there,

I had a great day today. I've been spending almost a week atmy family's summer cottage based on an island two hours away from Helsinki inFinland.

 A couple of weeks agomy new single Dirty Kisses became the signature song for a new TV show called"Motorbikers World".

They also interviewed me for one episode in the show, aboutmy music and my biking interest. I had a very nice day of driving around on thebike. It will be on the Jim channel in Finland on Saturday the 21st of July.

Picked 2 l of wild berries that turned into a big pie

The same guys are also making a TV show that's all aboutboats. Since the sea and boating have been a big part of my life since I was a childthey thought it would fit well for an episode.

So today they came to the summer cottage to film me drivingaround in a boat the whole day. It was a lot of fun speeding up and down, makingcircles etc.

For me the boat has always been only for commuting back and forth to the mainland andI think it was the first time I got to "drive for fun". 

Most of my childhood summer I've always spent 2 monthsstraight on the island and most of the weekends also in the wintertime. 

It's where my roots are and the best place for a good inspiration kick or peace for the soul.  I once even brought half a studio with me togetherwith my friends to have a productive weekend of songwriting.

Unfortunately the last few years I haven't been able to behere as much as before since there's been a lot of work to do. But I still gota wonderful week left of rehearsing songs, chopping wood and swimmingbefore going back to the studio next week.

I still got three songs left to record and then it's justthe editing, mixing and mastering left. Getting there!

Rock on,

Jessica

Dirty Kisses

Hey there guys and girls!

My new single "Dirty Kisses" is finally here! Check out the link below.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QKInSXe1sBs&feature=g-all-lik

It's always both scary and excited at the same time to release a new song. After working on the song following it from the first created note, to the final version, you get immune and it gets hard to imagine what it sounds like to someone who never heard it before.
Of course the goal is always, at least for me to effect people in a good way with my music. The feeling is so awesome when someone gives you good response after you put your heart into something.
However I think it's important not only when it comes to music but anything you create in general, to be open to peoples different opinions and remember that what you create is, not you, just a small piece of your personality. Even a strong negative reaction is better than nothing at all, and unless it's full of pointless crap it might even help you to grow as an artist.

It reminds me of one of the first gigs I had in Helsinki a few years ago. It felt like it went really well and I thought it was the best gig so far, but when I got off the stage the first thing my Kung-Fu master said was "That was shit! I couldn't even hear your voice". Well, I can't say it cheered me up but I'm glad he was so honest because it taught me that I should get my own mixer in the future.
Anyhow, enough  about reactions and creations.

When I wrote the lyrics for this song, it was like putting my feelings down on paper and turn it into something productive.
The message I want to bring out is to appreciate what you have in the present moment because a moment later it turns into a memory. I could probably write a whole page about the story behind the lyrics, but I rather leave it open for the listener to interpret it the way they feel.

I'm really thankful that I had such a great team around me working on this song. So I wanna share big thanks to the Swedish producers Joakim Övrenius & Patric Jonsson and Eric Gast (additional production) for the great work! I also want to share my appreciation to however invented coffee, which without this song would have sounded different ;)


Rock on!

Jessica Wolff


Ps. If you want to buy the single online, here are some options.

http://digianttila.com/
http://kauppa.nrj.fi/
http://cmstore.fi/
http://download.mtv3.fi/